Sunrise is near

Long have I waited. Till he appeared and the soul felt it's worth. A thrill of hope. My weary heart rejoices. Yonder breaks, a new and glorious morning.

December.6.2010

Sometimes the pains in life become too much to bare. I catch myself dissolving into my hurt. Fading away from the reality of my broken heart. As my eyes roll back to retreat, phantom tears roll down my cheek. I barely feel them. I've left myself. I'm numb. The road ahead becomes blurry and my rearview mirror, a distant memory. Don't get me wrong, the pain is still there, it's just too much. Too much. My being won't allow me to be swallowed by it. If it were to run free, I think it would kill me. Instead of an emotional break, something inside might literally break. I cry by myself. I hide. Ashamed. It comes in waves. In crashing waves. Crushing. As I walk to my front door the overwhelming since of alone almost makes me crumble. I'm alone. I fade away. I'm numb. It's too much.